Tuesday, March 11, 2008
The feeling for UATC was not tat great as expected. Mayb due to amazing race, which took up about half of 1st day. NCOs wasn't performing tat great on 1st day. Mayb i've pushed them way too much to their limits, expected too much from them. I should have given them much more time, im just too anxious.
There wasnt much discipline in the camp. Campers took their own sweet time, NCOs heading nowhere, alumni taking over as NCOs, CIs scolding all day long.
After whole day of reprimanding the NCOs and pushin them to their limits, I gave up hope, on them and on myself. I've decided to walk off and leave the camp, mayb this way will make them feel less pressurised. Went home at about 1am, chat with wan ying and she sort of enlightened me. I've told her about the NCOs wanting recognition, to perform well and all. And she gave me quite a few solutions. When she asked me if I wanted to go back to the camp, that's when I pondered and said, no. She told me if it is a NO, I wouldnt have wanted to talk about all these. And that's when I realised things can be done a different way.
On the 2nd day of camp, went back at about 8am. No more scolding of NCOs, I told myself. But guiding and leading them. At night, talked to the 3 COs, trying to know how they feel about the camp, the campers, the NCOs and they themselves. Sometimes these little talks with them make everyone learn. And I suppose they did learnt somethings.
There's oso other prob tat made me left the camp. And i've been asking myself, do things have to be this way? If only in the first place, everything were to be told, made clear to everyone, be frank with each other, things wouldnt result this way. And i hate this kind of things to happen. It suck big time. Seriously it does.
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my road to winning
